i check my pulse,
there is not a 2 stroke beat
my heart throbs violently like a sluggish diesel engine.

soothing, comforting, relieving....
so  many days i have been without sleep
somehow this drug is keeping me a float

both my car and my bedside are lined with sweets,
a tangled mess like im trying to comfort myself with such release

somehow i feel alright
like this  is much less pain
than is it delight

I check my pulse,
a gentle rhythm forms again
im reminded of how i am human...


finally i can sleep again...thank you...