- Do you think like all the rest?

"Only five left..." I think to myself at I start to boil water for instant noodles. Thoughts of the few friends I still have circle my head. "They are all probably enjoying the day with their family, eating home cooked meals and smiling. I wonder what my family is doing... Probably each getting drunk and eating nice meals as well." I get lost in thought standing in front of my warm stove as the water comes to a boil. I reach into the small cupboard in the corner where I keep all of my food and pull out a package of noodles. As I lower the heat and put the noodles into the pot, somehow something possessed me that today was special. I grab another package and cook it as well. "Tomorrow and the day after..." I whisper this to myself as a reminder that those are the days I will not be able to eat. Separating my money for the month, counting out $20 for food and the rest for bills... oh right, the bills... how could I have forgot? I change my money distribution, $5 for food this month, the rest is for bills... I lay back on my bed thinking about how I nearly passed out at work the day before, how my supervisor got angry at me for walking slowly. As I lay my head on my air mattress one thing populates my mind, "I cant stop fighting until it kills me... its killing me..." I pass out...